Friday, April 4, 2008

Faces of Death

After briefly skimming through the video footage I understand the reality of the world more than previously understood. Life as we know it is usually simple with our upbringing, things become complex as we begin to realise the responsibilities in life we have to ourselves.

There are many different people out there that would watch Faces of Death. Some for educational purposes, some for the twisted thrill of seeing death incorporated into a justifiable documentary. Faces of Death is shot like any other documentary, just with an added bluntness that disorientates the innocent.

Unfortunately the violent depiction in this documentary makes it very hard to digest by even the most hardened and experienced man or woman. The safest means of watching any kind of videos concerning or depicting ‘actual’ death is to put yourself in a certain mindset that will make it easier to watch.

After even watching a few self-regulated scenes, it has helped in almost completely eradicating any sympathy I once had for humanity in its entity. There would be a small percentage of people out there would who would admit this video does have its educational merits, although you can never be eased into something such as death without decades of de-sensitising to it through the media. This makes it very hard to extract the value of the actual documentary even today.

I’m still quite stunned by the video footage even though a great portion of it is pronounced ‘fake’. Not so much by the footage itself but by the reality of it. Watching this will without-a-doubt destroy any childhood innocence you have within your sub-conscious and may be hard for you forget for years to come (if ever).

I feel my compulsive curiosity into the aspects of death is occasionally being expelled in violent frustrations at society. Each day draws me closer to ‘making a difference’ or a mark in history that will open up our eyes more and more until we make an undeniable promise to humanity, that we will make a difference without postponing it.

The only advice I can give anyone curious enough to watch anything like this is, not to. There is no true way of knowing whether you can handle the violence and actuality of real death until you see it. Fortunately I’ve never seen anything traumatic in-person, only through the means of the media.

Some say that Ignorance is Bliss, this can apply to those who cannot come to terms that death is human nature. Religion generally softens death down with comforting notions of life after death, this can be appealing for anybody that doesn’t feel ready to accept the reality of it.

Is it Ignorant to believe in a God?

Or is it Ignorant not to?

The argument is about as subjective as the definition of the word and would be a fine example of what Philosophers have been ranting about for centuries.

I am straying far from the point here, I will conclude in-depth later on.

Friday, May 25, 2007

This is a blog about my long-distance relationship. I hope this helps anyone in a similar situation.

Here is a my relationship

Beginning - December 2004 / January 2005
I met Monica in December 2004 on the internet via AIM/MSN. We chatted alot to each other in the days coming up to New Years, almost day and night. The first time we started chatting we quickly hit it off. I asked her if she had any plans for New Years, she didn't so we spent New Years together over the internet. We hooked up our microphones and webcams (Her microphone was not working at the time) and began to chat.

Celebrating New Years via the internet may seem like a silly thing for most people, although it was probably the best New Years i'd ever had. There was none of that 'getting drunk' and then passing out stuff that most people look forward to, it was just pure intellectual discussion regarding the paranormal with mix with competetive debating..

Discussion on the Paranormal/U.F.O.s/Goverment Conspiracies is really what brought us so close together.

About a week after New Years day we spent day and night talking to each other, I was having dreams about her almost every night. I remember the first time I heard Monica's voice over the microphone, she was so nervous it was cute. She'd make these little trembling noises and her voice was shaky. After talking with her verbally down the microphone and built up the courage to tell her how I felt, it's different orally saying 'I love you' to someone you've only been speaking to with text for as long as you've known them. The only reason I found it difficult to first say was fear of being rejected. So I just said what was in my heart, she went quiet for a moment and muttered out a little trembling noise again. At that point I knew it wasn't a bad thing, so I said 'I love you' again.

I remember her saying the same back shortly afterwards, when she felt less nervous and free of the other relationship she was in at the time.


During the end of January 2005 I visited Paris on a college trip. This was very hard, breaking contact from Monica for those 4 days. I wrote in my travel journal how I felt at the time, I was mostly fearing that she would leave me for someone else during this time because i'd gotten so close to her in such a short period of time.

*I shall be putting my travel journal entries here soon*